A Night Worth Erasing...

i don't know what went wrong that night...
a sudden call made me hope for something else
eager to hear your voice, i answer...
right away, i sensed something wrong
was this the moment i ever feared the most?

you start the conversation like you always do
how's my day? am i okay? what am i thinking?
then you got to the point....
as you talk, i was fuming inside
i was fighting the urge to yell and scream at you...
what you said to me felt like you burned my heart....
speechless, i hung up the phone

i need to be alone
the throbbing pain from my heart was unbearable...
i needed you with me so bad...
what had gone wrong?
heartbroken, i lay crying myself to sleep...

another day without you was unbearable...
the world had ended before me
i feel reckless and in denial..
what should i do?
it's so hard for me to forget you

i hated myself for loving you so much
you made me believe our love was sincere
did it mean anything to you?
or was it just a game?
the memories, the laughs, the happiness,
all washed away forever...

moving on took forever
you're still here in my heart,
but not the same feeling
as the days go by, the hurt infuriates
the flames rise as i think of you
but i hope someday,
someone could take out the fire, the memories, the love, the hurt....